Take Up Your Cross Daily

2011-11-24T11:51:00.002-08:00

Romantic Love... Does it last, I dont think so... STernberg's Theory. I still do enjoy watching A walk to remember though. I have nth to blog abt, I am

supposed to be doing research article reading but tempted by wireless.

Here are some nice pics from 1 of my fav movies, enjoy!I know I m hypocritical ;o

2010-02-06T21:01:00.000-08:00

Sigh I feel sad :(. I cant go out to run or roller blade because of the annoying stabber around yishun. Also, I am running low on cash. I feel so trapped

2010-02-02T00:52:00.000-08:00

Hi every one who ever who reads this blog... lol i think no one

hey hey i would like to become fashionable :D I realise I am not very fashionable. I think i am a plain jane : ( hmms.. but I really dont know how to start...Thread my eyebrows the way i want and rebond my hair?? but I am so lazy to dress up! OH NO ;) Any tips anyone on how to start? :)

2009-11-24T22:21:00.000-08:00

Tea by kirubai on Polyvore.com

I am supposed to be mugging on Biological Psy and stats.. *groan* but I foound other ways to kill time:) But it was fun :)

2009-10-27T06:49:00.000-07:00

I Really Love this version from the Corrs ( AT YOUR SIDE UNPLUGGED)

2009-10-07T17:25:00.001-07:00

Its quite Painful to see friends drift apart, leave you or when you are forced to break up with them. I ve tried to accept the fact that ppl will eventually leave but I am always not learning. Ppl drift, ppl break up and grow distant. I hope I can constantly find happiness within myself and from God. I Hope not to depend on others for joy. I am quite sick from losing ppl in these 2 years :( Ppl will eventually leave and all you have left are memories. And when I reflect upon those ,
it just makes me very sad:(

2009-10-05T12:22:00.000-07:00

I can't really sleep tonight. It upsets me when I think of the reason. I never was such a person but have turned into one. I can't stand change although inevitable. I decided to call my friend who is over seas and yeah! she happened to be awake (having insominia) at 3.00 am. But due to high charges, I asked her to summarise her life in 5 mins which was seriously super fun :D lol

Hearing her voice after some time did give me some form of comfort. I do adore this person very much. She's one of those close friends who truly lifts me up and understands me very well. When I think of her I think of Hope And Endurance.

2009-09-12T04:03:00.000-07:00

Hello:)

I want this piggy. eeekks.. so CUTE!!!:) YL send it to me:) I named it baby:). I can't contain its Cutsie pienessss...!! Pigs really shound't grow

Music

2009-07-27T02:46:00.000-07:00

Music is something I need.. very good and makes me really dizzy, high and bursting with happiness ( very nice :)) here are some of the music I listen too

Their music is pleasing to the ears... the sounds of the tin flute and violin makes it very melodious

Yeah and Nat Imbruglia is great too...her vioce is soothing and guitar sounds really nice ... oh and the white lilies island cover (2nd Cover below) is so pretty :)

Secret Garden is my fav..very calming and dizzying..nice instrumental pieces

Corrinne May is my all time fav. Her songs not only addresses love but personal growth and the sounds of the piano is addictive

And David Garrett, he produces unique pieces with his violin, mixing classical and rock ( makes me very High :))

Other music worthy of listening to are THE SCRIPT (an irish band)

SARAH MCLACHLAN (lyrics are very good)

COLDPLAY

Heart of a Lioness

2009-07-09T05:21:00.000-07:00

I have cable for 6 months.. and its wonderful, ANIMAL PLANET, DISCOVERY AND HALLMARK ARE THE BEST, but animal planet beats them all, yesterday i watched a lioness loving and raising a baby oryx, cuttteee! At first, every instinct in the baby oryx probed it to escape but after caresses from the lioness *( named Kamunyak meaning the blessed one), the baby felt comfortable with her. Both foster mother and child have not eaten in sixteen days. It s a extremely sad ending when the baby was caught and feasted by a lion whereby its foster mother could not do anything as it was too weak and frightened. She then, as lioness would do when her cub has just die, sniffed the blood of her dead baby oryx. A Doctor suggested that the lioness had lost her pride at a fairly young age and thus this traumatic experince has led her obsession to mother and protect the baby orxy:)

HeTaLia

2009-06-25T04:15:00.000-07:00

Addicted to HETALIA, so cuteee especially chibitalia and America, I Love the east asian countries shown..soo pretty! My favourite are Germany, America, Hungary.. !! woot woot!I normally get bored by anime but this is really nice:) Excellent stimulation. I can't believe I m fan girling lol :)

Candy Dolls

2009-06-20T02:16:00.000-07:00

I can't help posting another one of my elouai candy dolls, what a fab website! I can't help gushing about how pretty the set looks:) I wanna go Japan:(

2009-05-03T22:13:00.000-07:00

So Cute! Elouai Doll Maker that I' ve discovered, Have been playing with it since. Yeah Sji is having an extra May Day holiday so I don't need to work! :) Has been a stressful week, so today I planned to just chill at home and finish up my book and maybe later go down for a strecthing class. Hope it will be great day for everyone

2009-04-15T02:11:00.000-07:00

I love the soft shades in this room... white, creamy pink, lace and vintage collectibles.. Dream Room.. so beautiful!

2009-04-13T22:52:00.000-07:00

Tulle, Spring & LollIng ArounD by kirubai featuring Tarina Tarantino hair accessories

Some collage I did on polyvore.com, had Fun doing it !:)

LoVeEEEee

2009-03-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

People I need to thank: kiran and rubs. These two close friends whom i cannot thank enough. Not only do they give me great advice but have helped me much through their actions, sweet deeds and firmness. They are two very special to me as they who have walked along side with me throughout my troubles and have put in a lot of effort to help solve my difficulties. They are so dependable and are not tic for tac, helping me to their best regardless of how much help i have offered them in the past. Although i can sometimes irritating and be irrational, they still put up with me and never ceased to care. Thanks darlings

2009-03-04T18:10:00.000-08:00

Good Music

Corrinne May ( Fav #1)
The Corrs ( Fav #3.. )
Pride And prejudice soundtrack piano and harp preludes (Fav #2)
Leona Lewis
Orchard House ( arrangement by Thomas Newman)
Classical; Relaxation Vol: 10 Concerto for Flute and Harp ( Fav #3)
Van Morrison
Enya
Ricardo Arjona

2009-01-27T05:37:00.000-08:00

hi! I havent blog properly for a very long time. well life has been very fun. haha just came back from my aunty's cny dinner. It was quite fun. we played captain's ball and thank god..the food was different for once. yeah i am so happy i am going back to the child care tmr. I am filling in for one of the teachers for 2 days. i havent really blog about the time i had to leave child care cause it was painful and blogging about it would be bad too. The pic was taken during x mas. We had our usual family x mas celebrations, beef stew with red wine sauce and my aunt's tiramisu were fantastic. Wonderful times. fun times spent with my family, besties kiran and charlotte, mel and my jc frens Rubs , Ame sweetheart and Nors Smores and Nan dear made december a great month. I'm looking forward to even better things.

2009-01-21T01:15:00.000-08:00

Once shop can't stop.

Things i want
1.) pearl drop earings
2.) silver danglies earlings
3.) white bag
4.) decorative pretty hooker like thingy to hang my jewelery
5.) basic tees( i need)
6.) shorts
7.) clips
8.) paisley print dress

Other things i want
1.) Belly dance classes
2.) perfume nina ricci
3.) white sandles C & K
4.) Scrapbk materials ( only thing i purchased)
5.) Super nanny's guide bk for parents
6.) Book on massage techniques
7.) Conversational Chinese lessons at cambridge school

I need to prioritise. The cash is depleting at an increasing rate

2008-12-27T19:44:00.000-08:00

whoo post christmas sale

ChiLdCarInG

2008-11-25T03:03:00.001-08:00

Have been going to work.. its been tiring but no mental stress, it does help me forget about my worries, I felt a little down today and i know whats exactly bothering me.Working with chldren has been amusing so far, bathing them and hearing them talk gibber. Haha but its physical labour but I get to sleep for 2 plus hours too when the nursery kiddies are sleeping.. Thats my messaging timeand I here other stuff too during the nap time lol..gossip.The teacher in charge keeps telling meto be fiercer if not they will " sit on top of your head"according to her. I try to be fierce but i cant. They seem so happy playing with each other.. laughing and all. Then today played mother mother with someof the K1 girls. Sooo cute some of them. The job is satisfying

RefreshinG

2008-11-23T05:35:00.000-08:00

I really forgot the feeling of happiness... for quite a while. Maybe that is why i felt sad on the last day of exams. I forgot how happy I could be. It is nice catching up with my friends and family members. At the "fun night" yesterday.. I was assailed with a familiar but refreshing sensation...happiness. I felt really untroubled n buoyant... i love the feeling of not having mental stress but of course there are still other stuff which swirls within me. But i think I'm starting to taste what happiness is like again :) God bless

2008-11-20T04:06:00.000-08:00

A levels just ended... I feel ok i guess...quite fearful of the future... well i got a job to at least to keep sane and useful... well i am going to buy scrap book materials and start scrap booking all my photos, then go to
my baaby cousin's and house and play with her promised( play poly- pocket), catch up with close frens Go shopping! buy perfume and skirts yeah! yeah i am feeling happy now, Sarah's loke 's get together with my sec school friends and Charlotte's fashion show and dance lessons....makes me happy, oh and i am going to cook too..whoot . Eat yummy desserts too. So many months of Bliss.

Hee hee !

2008-09-11T02:32:00.000-07:00

There are tugs which are strong but so many obstacles around

DizzyinG FaScInatIoN

2008-09-06T23:46:00.000-07:00

Flowers make me giddy, . I love white roses ahhh. In the past, I used to dislike flowers becasue my room used to be so messed up that I couldnt bear to keep flowers in an unsightly room so i found them quite a hassle in my room.... but right now with the quick 15 minute routine i invented to clean my space, keeping flowers are possible, hmms but my space is still quite small... i want a mini garden. I like red and pink roses too but the white ones still make dizzy.... so delicate, pale... which adds a touch of helplessness... , subtle and ethereal sigh.... A single red rose is captivating too. Fascination and passion... i guess my fascination for roses stems from my romantic nature, according to my friends, I tend to display romanticism in things that I do, I think half the time i am just in my own world... :)

2008-09-05T22:57:00.000-07:00

I really miss using my letter writing kit to write long letters to my family and friends..,will get back to it after the exams and not forgetting scrap booking ...

Cravings at the moment:

Time

Massages

Cuddles

Craftwork

Lying on the grass

Steak and Ribs

2008-08-28T00:49:00.000-07:00

Ahh, my IS is veddy bad, i am sad, nervous and lost, ok need to pick myself up. My grades are bad. Today i was plagued by some knawing disturbing sadness... A Levels, with these kind of grades, i can go no where. ok all distractions must go and must focus on goal. Nice things and ppl after exams. PARANOID, oh i must thank ppl who are very gd and nice and lovable... ppl like rubz who spurred me on in an ultimately(2 sweet way and taught me TACTICS haha and Amelia too for encouragement and alwayz being there for me. Thanks babies. hmms i shall try hard not to freak out and feel troubled or I'll turn into a puzzled mad-like thing...even worst then KURTZ from heart of darkness. Aiyo

CrUsHeD BuT PeppeRed WitH SwEEtnEsS

2008-08-07T06:09:00.000-07:00

Reflecting on the past 2 years of my life, Wow, I think I have changed a lot. Looking on the bight side, I have become a stronger person. I am better equipped to balance both work and emotions. I still can't believe that I am being able to handle what I am handling at this point of my life. I still know that I have certain weaknesses that I need to improve on and that I haven’t fully developed into the person that I want to be

Although I have lost innocence, I have become less naïve. But I still can’t believe how scheming some people are in the world. However close you are to them, they might instantly crush you for their personal interest. Self-protection is necessary and I learnt not to rely too much on people around me but to pick my self up with God’s strength. I am not saying that friends and family are useless, they are there to boost you but eventually it’s up to you to pick yourself up. They won’t be there all the time so depending on oneself is vital.

I don’t think my core has completely healed from past hurts. My heart still twists itself when I think of the people and things that I have let go of. Well, these things do happen and I am glad I have gained some experiences that can help me in my future.

Oh well my life is constantly filled with exquisite people and things around me, even though they are just the simplest of things,everything from the sweet little cutie pies that I look after in church to the flowers I picked at the park yesterday and to the old aunty at the bus top today and to the hidden wishes and dreams from my soul and strong tugs like a life-force, that cannot be captured in mere words, amongst other people and other things.

2008-07-30T02:57:00.000-07:00

I loathe shopping centres unless i am there to get something really fantastic. The crowd simply turns me off but i guess u have to bear with em since there are like 5 million or sth in spore. And i go there only to eat and becasue my friends love going there... secretly i prefer to frolic around in a garden or park and have a lovely little picnica and good conversation, with cheese and champagne and spagetti and chocolates and skirts and ribbons and green grass. whoo whoo weeee.. ooooh i feel like rubbing pure wet soil on my cheek now. It feels refreshing to be so close to something natural. Feel like watching the sun rise, havent had the luxury to do that in a long time....

2007-11-19T22:46:00.000-08:00

I am very frightened, i feel that i am losing all my friends
URGH! every year end, i feel this way. Last year was worst! i hate this feeling when ur class gets seperated and all your friends get scattered. I am sad

2007-09-06T23:41:00.000-07:00

Morning of sep 4 or 5 th lol:

My sister and i made Oatmeal cookies, actually shes the one who did most of the job but she let me take a photo of it holding it anywayz lol. at this moment ifeel awfully bloated and here am sitting done and blogging. i have to admit this, its been nagging me since forever, i am overly concern about maintaining my weight but i dont know how to. i mean i dont think i am fat or anything but i do want to maintain the weight i am . but ireally ned to change my mindset that inner beauty matters most and that my self-worth does not come from my looks. I ask for prayers for me before i get caries away with this mentality of mine. Thanks

2007-09-05T06:12:00.001-07:00

Sep 4-

Today was a pleasant day as my sisters and i made samosas together, pris is really good making and teaching us how to make em, she's a natural home-maker, sigh we just forgot to capture these moments casue we were so caught up doing it. i hope she can teach me vermicelli rice cake, it seems she got an A grade on that one.

Anyways recently i feel that i have not come before the Lord with a clean heart, i find, insecurites, fears, impure thoughts and i am praying to ask the lord to heal me day by day. Although i feel lonely at times, i know that i always have my father in heaven to rely uponand he will provide me the wisdom to solve it.

Anyways i had so much fun with my sisters today that I wished that we will not neglect each other when we get older and that our families will still be closely bonded.

I am thinking of creating a " Friends" Scrap book so that i can reminise about my secondary school fun i had with mel and friends. i had lunch with her 2 days ago. Initially i didn't want to go becasue it was so far and it was only going to be an hour as i had a dental app but i went just so i could encourage her by being a godly sister to her. During our rendevouz (did i spell it right?) I was assailed with new but familiar sensation lol.... happiness... i cackled so much at her jokes ! " we should do this more often" i said as i snugly hugged her goodbye later on.

2007-08-31T05:34:00.000-07:00

oh lord, please make my sister up, shes like a literal clone of my overwhelming aunt.

i know this is mean of me, but sometimes she just needs to stop lecturing, c' mon i 'm still a teenager. I feel woman, in control. but this season, its really quite a tough one for, i feel inhibited, surpressed, less liberated, lonely, i think its a stage in life everyone goes through maybeand i think its also due to the fact of not having lotsa personal space,

i need space to have order, sort things out and vent my creativity. and my! i don't really understand myself, i mean how can someone feel extremely happy one sec and the next wallow in unnecesary sorrow, self-pity. The amount of contemplation and thoughts running in my head causes me migrains at times, thank u God for school and work to get me offf these depressive state at times.

2007-08-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

Aug 19-once, again lonelinesss and pure dryness takes over.....
bananas and apples make me happy
oh lord, i havent studied for georg ahhhhhh
err this sermon is irritating,
oh my the amount of lies, insecurities, fears( of being vulnerable) and lack
of faith is huge.

When Purpose Fades And Loneliness Takes Hold

2007-08-10T08:21:00.001-07:00

I'm walking in a scorching desert
Incessant Walking
It is so arid that I long for fresh water
The branches and sparse leaves around me are parched and have fallen to the ground
My thrist is unbearable and i just want to drop on the ground
To Give in to the seductive calling of blankness
Falling, i feel the cragginess of sand press across my cheek
I breathe hard
A faint whine, perhaps one of pain
The corner of my eye catches a baby cub, so lost and lonely
Its head turning from side to side across the vast space
Mother or siblings no where to be seen
Slowly, it starts to nibble on a parched piece of fallen leave
In all its innocence and naiveness,
It believes that there is still something for it in this ceaseless land
{Saleh}
Mustering my might, i lifted my scawny body,
Embracing the hope of finding delicious water
But unaware of the sand dune arriving tomorrow

-Sarah Francis

2007-08-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

Aug 8-

Sometimes i feel that not one of the guys i know fit my criteria, they re so crude, Even to a girl. Most of the time i feel rather degraded if boys talk to me grossly, i am not feminist but i feel that our dignities must be maintained and guys should not talk to us so crudely. i am mortified at times

2007-08-07T23:47:00.000-07:00

August 8th, - feeling exuberant for a couple of reasons, slightly kittenish perhaps, partly due

Chocalates,(brownie and pudding) made by talented joanna who is whisked off by her family to i think port dicksen

Intense stares or gazes, to be honest

Quirky Nors Smores( Nora)

Amelia's happiness

Zoos enthusiasm during track and field that made me giggle

And the baby in my post that looks untouchable,

Oh Lord, i feel like my heart is bursting, well not literally but with joy, mmmhss

2007-08-01T01:07:00.000-07:00

August 1st-
In the library at school, feel like munching chocalates...mm, so much to do and so very tired... shall do newspapaer article first
dance, thats better..... and teach tuition, go home read story book and sleep, looked at the ttherapins today, they looked too adorable that i thanked the lord for them, i am a little crazy. they remind me that there's more to life than studying and acheiving, they remind that life is also about sight, touch, to feel , love and take action. And i thanked the lord from with-drawing me from the sorrow of my chemistry test, he reminde me tenderly to wait upon him silently and relax. Nature is really Beautiful and i have forgotten to to dwell among the Lord's creation that he has created for me. So if ur tired, mentally, i urge that u mediatae on God's word and the things that he has wonderfully created for us; be it a gurgling baby, a naive therapin or simply a vibrant rainbow,it protrays God's Glory and his Love for us.

2007-07-27T07:35:00.000-07:00

27- th july,

Had a bad day for a start but had no stress internally, nothing productive as
usual accept if i am reading articles for general paper, story books or any
reading materials, Tried to see the good in routine stuff but cant, whats so great about doing chemistry...
Am trying to seek balance in life at the moment and i made friends with a really sweet aunty in the general office.

Nothing around me striked me or reminded me of the Lord.Or rather i didnt make it a point to notice. Nora suddenly appeared so cute and adorable in the classroom when she laughed, shes got the embarrass look on her face and all. lol

2007-07-24T21:51:00.000-07:00

july 23, or is it 24th-

Feeling lightheaded, cold, contemplative, cold, don't feel like walking on wet grass anymore due to antartic weather, sleepy, sunshine come already please....

Remembered that the Lord Loves me, feel that i am

his child and that he sacrificed everything for me. I

don'tneed anyone to fill that loneliness,talkedto him

throughout the day

Covetnousness

2007-07-24T21:20:00.000-07:00

hi friends, it been an overwheliming week, but i have learn and accuired is meaningful.The Lord hinted to me about covetousness this past few days. Lucky he did before i went crazy.

I am quite competitive and always strive to give extra work to beat my classmates For example for a question and answer segment where i was suppose to write a few pages, i wrote alot.... and the teacher asked me specifically to write it on the paper itself but i disobeyed. i wanted to write exessively to gain top placing

What touched me from my devotions with God that i was coveting 1st thing and that the root of this was selfishness, a heart seeking selfish gain and an obession for more than is legitimate or needful. I craved to top! And also in all this i forgot about my morning quiet times with the lord.

I forgot about storing about the treasures in heaven
and i think to alleviate ourselves to become covetous, we must always look towards the prize:
in heaven. we must remeber that our life is a long yard and only a fraction of 1 cm is spent on earth. So what if u do not acheive the top goals we set ourselves, it does not matter,

Of course this is not an excuse to slack becasue the lord god told us that whatever u do , do to ur best and at this moment is for us, students to study. Thats our one of the things GoD gave us to accomplish and we have to u use to the maximum and so our best! Do well for his Glory so that others might see jesus through us by the blessings that he has showered over us.

But we must not let it overcome us and we just deceive ourselves by saying oh its ok we are doing for God's Glory and let it capture us. Thats what i did and when jesus showed the contents of my heart, i knew deep within, a core of selfishness was hidden, it was the root

Pray and ask God to spill the dirty contents of our heart and ask him to create in us new, hearts and minds

2007-07-23T10:03:00.000-07:00

i l ike all things feminie, i cant help it but dainty teacups excite me, like an electron lolbabies, scrapbooking, baking, knitting lol dont laugh, i really do like knitting but its just that

i dont have the chance to try em, i am not at the moment, at 1 am in the morning bursting

with zealous creative energy, oh lord provide me with something creative to do... like scarpbooking.... need some money and go for classes, hmmss

2007-07-23T09:37:00.000-07:00

23 july-
such a busy day, managed to enjoy HOT SPICY TUNA SUSHI ! thank u god ,not very effective casue i splurge money on taxi fare
learnt about different religions... catholicism, islam etc and how they perceive different issues like abortion, uthenesia and homosexuality..... what taboo topics, i hope we get going on to some other issues like social issues like Beauty, life and hard work or educations or WOmen rights , love that.

2007-07-22T06:41:00.000-07:00

Sunday- 22 nd july

hi friends, i havent blogged for a long time. Sundays are always fun for me even if their tiring

i am involve in the children's ministry( prasie ones.. ages 4 to 6 ), my heart burts with joy each sunday when i see them, i hust want to cuddle each one of em with kisses.

today i looked after this 4 yr old name Issac and he was the sweetest thing, hes quite shy and queit and needed his mommy for the first few sundays. he wouldnt even want to leave me for woship. During lesson, he doesnt really understand whats going on,and is murmuring unexplainable mutterings to himself on my lap while i was trying to get him to listen.

When the tacher said that we are part of God's family like our arms and feet that are part

of one's body, i coaxed him, trying to get him involved," Issac, wheres ur feet?"

he replied " no( pointing to nose), fee, eye n hair" and simply stared at me, waiting for my praise. lol.

Although sundays are really draining for me as i get toilet jobs and smeeze weezy goos for them done and try to get them to listen , i am glad as each sunday, i get to touch a beautiful child's life. veen though some of them barely retain the lesons, i don't thing its a waste as i know that the seeds are planted in them.

2007-07-08T06:39:00.000-07:00

Oh aid me Lord God to do your will

The perpelexity inside me so vexing

My heart often yearns for fleeting rapture

Like Adoration, Adulation and Acclamation

Prithee Lord, unwrap the contents of my tarnished heart

So I would be sensible in my doings

My inner being, togethwe with the world probs that i am

missing my youth

But you ask me to rememebr thee,

my Creator in these days

Let they will oh Lord, and not mine, be done

So see to my uncertainty that overwhelmes me

Answer, oh Lord i pray

-Sarah francis

2007-07-06T08:46:00.000-07:00

A Woman who laughs

Many of us feel sadness when trouble comes but how many of us can laugh at our dayss to come

Well a girl who is attractive is able to alugh at her future, it is not that she has good grades, alot of materialistic things to keep her going or is fully controlled of her life. But her laughter springs from the security that her life is under god's hands and that she can entrust all her tmrs to his care. What it means to fear god is to totally trust his goodness. thjat does not mean tha tthe woman will NOt have heartaches.

As girls now in this centurey, we are driven by the world to strive for material pursuits in life- certificates, pretty things, etc.And if all goes wrong or even some things amiss, we FREaK ! as we want perfection and a happy life. But we have to realise the fact that happiness comes from christ alone, not materialistic things ro acheivements or going out with girl-freinds etc. is doing what jesus wants you to do.

So a Girl who fears the lord will habe her heart delighted due to her riches stored up from times alone with him. With her, one can learn to enjoy refreshement and restoration and even chuckle and giggle in the midst of pain

Sarah/kiki

2007-07-05T05:31:00.000-07:00

Beauty

Personally, i love long Flowy skirts and dresses, they are just so pretty to frolic in. plain white, flower- embroided u name i love em, i love the feeling of em swirling around my legs and the wind blows, it makes me feel pretty and lithe lol. i wore around 3 to 4 skirts during china and got wierd stares by some girls becaseu now not a lot of girls wear long skirts unless its the in thing at the moment like the bohemian thingy going on.

I think bacasue of the woman in family, i am skirt bound lol, my aunty has a great taste in clothes, she wears blouses anmd tailored skirts and looks sharply chic and stunning in them, she has always train me to wear skirts

In my teen years, oh well i am still in my teens..... well then in preeten years, i pined for short skirts, revealing tops becasue i thought it was the cool thing and that people would admire ur taste in "hot" fashion. i have made some wrong decisions in the past and regrett them strongly.

But as i came closer to the lord, i begin to see that what counts

is inner beauty rather than outward appeareances.

Actually i dont know why but i started adopting clothes

which were less frightening and outright and more softer

and milder, maybe its personal preference but i guess

theses kind of clothes reflect the kind of character that jesus

wants a girl to have.

Even though one dresses decently but if her heart is unclean,

it does no good to her.

i am happy to share this fun litlle detail with you and i hope u will leave

inriguing and pondering comments

Tenderly

KIKi/ Sarah Francis

2007-07-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

July 4th-i am always sleeping so late nowadays, i want something sweeter, nourishing and more fufilling in life Lord

July 4Th- the lord taught me not to take credit for myself and harbour high feelings and pride in myself becasue of the grade he has given me in chemistry, and i thanked him for showing me the cindition of my heart vividly.
when paul and barabus were praised as gods, they got scared and refused the people, this was the depth of their fear of God, Lord help me cultivate this , even the slighthest percent of glory should be given to the lord as he is the one who enabled me with wisdom, study skills, and directed my actions. PRAISE BE TO GOD.

2007-07-03T07:09:00.001-07:00

i feel that we are so deprived and restrained in this country.......
no time to bake, scarp book and tend a garden and do those lovely things i like to do
i am stuck with doing pw... er...highly.vexing grr, i cant even go and enjoy my brownie
this is very bad. or do something very fantabulously satiating. boo hoo. i am sure amany of us feel this way, lets go back down and look at the list i created shall we, only completed 1/2 lol anywayz i so waana do scap-booking. no time so sad. boo hoo. such a pity, wana play dress up too, its so eciting to don my self in pretty bonnets, ribbons, , victorian blouses and flowy skirts. And pretend to tend a garden and oooh on a hilly side in scotland with little cuttie lambies..... aww man this is depressing eating brownies with walnuts.Rocks. Thats life people
thats life

now lets look at the bright side of things... hmm pw 's not so bah bad after all aye? ( rhetorcal questions..just in case for dummies like me lol) t'was doin it just now( sorry adopting scottish accent, just in the mood) rambling on bout how gaming affects society... of all things gaming... of all people in the world, i have to be the one doing gaming, theres no one in the world who is more clueless about it than me.

2007-07-02T19:03:00.000-07:00

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i am still feeling lonely... some sorta internal depression lol but much miore freeer lol , things to do

i was feeling really depress for the past few days.... firstly someone my heart was , well fine not really my heart i am being over-dramatic here i suppose lol well i felt really lonely and a feelings were dampened somehow, some things really cant share. so i decided to sleep through it like my sista reba said

next morning i woke up, my mouth curling in a wide yawn and me optimistic about the bright new day ahead of me as suunlight spilled over me.... shocker here, brace urselves; my phone went thorough a entire ordeal whereby it was pushed and toss by the torrent of current in the washing machine.

i cried the entire day and i wonder what God was teaching me. i even showed a bad temper at my dad and he shouted at me. hmms, i wonder if its being flexible and compasionate even during difficult times .......

2007-06-29T00:48:00.000-07:00

How i wish i can spend my evenings in long glorious sunsets at the top a serene placeto drown the misery that i am going through now

Let this goodbye of ours, this last goodbye

Be still and splendid like a forest tree.......

Let there be one grand look within our eyes

Built of the wonderment of the past years

Too vast a thing of beauty to be lost

In quivering lips and burning floods of tears

-Alice Meynell

And i am still reading my own blog...

Ps: Father please helP!!!!

2007-06-26T04:42:00.000-07:00

June 26th- feel wide awake, had a gp essay test on pursuit of
beauty being a joy or a pain, chose the latter

feel stressed cause of lack of study time
need to walk on wet grass with bare feet and bask in the sun shine

Wait for the storm to be over, i'll get you through this
says the Lord. Trust me Don't panic, I know what Iam doing

2007-06-25T02:23:00.000-07:00

June 25th- i really don't feel good today,
the literature paper was quite bad in fact... sigh

But just like David vented out his anger and distress to the lord,
i will toward my Lord jesus, as we are allowed to pour out our anger,
Questions, pain to the infinite one and he will not be damaged

" For we beat on his chest from within the circle of his arms"

after exam Goodie treaties! yippee!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-22T09:06:00.000-07:00

What i would like to embark on after the exams:

Strengten bond with the Lord

1.) Creative Memories Scrap booking... so exiting lol

2.) A la mode choco brownie at coffee club

3.) Prayer plan

4.) NYAA- stretching classes

5.) Catch up with love ones
6.) sunday school plannies

7.) Read up on my World issues

8.) make this blog widely known and add more creations

9.) Baking chocolate moist cookies!! mmmmmmmm

10.) Get involve in housework.... my family regains their breaths

11.) Be aa more generous person in terms of time-sharing

12.) Ok i am not trying to be materialistic but SHOPPING,

aww c'mon give me a break, its the great singapore sale

13.) Try to get the money for supposed shopping spree

14.)Letter -writing, sticker sharing, lol

15.) Write any long nice nourishing article!!! yeah kick somma that!

16.) Feng shui: filing, room cleaning, organisation, decorations

17.) GOOd reads: Kane and Able, purpose driven

18.) Buy teddy webbie who is sitting at popular now,

2007-06-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

CLeaN Me Up!

i am a self-scentered person by nature, i like prefer to be by myself..... i hate to sacrificeTIME, especially if my exams are around the corner casue most of the time i do last min studying lol .but here is what elizi elliot said....

" To give myself up is the last thing I think of doing. It looks like weakness.

In God's eyes, though it is power."

The insights that jesus had given during devotion was use

ur mouth to encourage and build each other up and not LIE!!

ur words reflect ur unclean heart. We need to know that we

are accepted by his grace, mercy and embrace, we dont have to defend our selves with harsh words to other poeple. The words that we use show the conditionof our hearts.Most of the times, our hearts are not clean ,

we harbour thoughts which are notright... even the sheerest

thought of envy is within us so i think we need to

ask god to keep creating in us a new heart, mind, spirit and

souls always ask him to make me innocent and honest as that babe!lol

2007-06-16T07:50:00.000-07:00

HaD A bAd DaY

hi people, this has been a bad day.... i bieng enslaved by a sense of nothingness. anywayz this is "lady luck" she esacped from a aniaml market and was roaming on the streets of new york.

i feel pretty depressed.... to the point that i started reading " 100 tips to feel happy" guess what none of them worked. Here is what elsabeth elliot said.... on one of the devotions that i printed out, she said anxiety

and depression can be overcome by " By delighting

urself in the Lord"

Purposes in my life:

We were planned for God’s pleasure, so your first purpose is to offer real worship.

We were formed for God’s family, so your second purpose is to enjoy real fellowship.
We were created to become like Christ, so your third purpose is to learn real discipleship.
We were shaped for serving God, so your fourth purpose is to practice real ministry.
We were made for a mission, so your fifth purpose is to live out real evangelism.

I am at that point where i dont feel it, hey but if jesus didnt "feel" compassion at that time of fear when he was going to hanged, we would be going to hell, no purpose, no goal , everyone gone

My tuition teacher just decide not to teach me and my exams are in one weeks time. i dont really know how iam going to be coping but i will trust in the lord, well i mean he did get me to the jc lol.

but i have to admit that i havent surrendered a part of me.... big question: mhat god wants me to repeat Jc1? i mean i am not saying that he wants to do it on purpose ot to make me happy, its for my good so for the mean time i'll pray and let be unto god's will. and i have to start STUdYiNG

2007-06-07T06:57:00.000-07:00

This is Elisabeth Elliot my Inspiration and the Woman that i Admire

" Give up self
Take up Cross
Follow"
- elisabeth elliot

hi, this my new bloggy

2007-06-07T06:38:00.000-07:00

Eww its like PinK, not the nice pale sweet pink but the more pastle one like the gross ones u use in art class. lol . peaches and cream complexion.soft curls bouncing. fluffy pershian cat. plum coated finger nails. this is bad. what the mass media has done, it even influenced me too. sorry some randomn thought. i am grossed out . sorry

little mermaid

hi, this my new bloggy

2007-06-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

hi well i have been reading ppl's blogs and i felt sad, thats casue i didn't express my self enough i suppose so well heres my new bloggy! had an old one but forgot the addy